this was fine. i don't know what i thought this was gonna be, but it certainly wasn't THAT. the writing isn't the best, the plot moves too fast and overall underwhelming. i just wish the words behind the cover picture had the same skin-crawling creepiness, the same deftness of skill, the same unforgettable quality. i also wish i could say this will teach me to stop judging books by their covers, but it won't! i will never learn! ( )

I had so much hope this would be good.

This book goes from "I'm glad to have someone to share my pain with" to "I want to keep you as my property" with too many steps skipped over. A little less zero to a hundred and more twenty-five to a hundred. It almost works if you squint.

Agnes tells her mother she's gay in a funny way while a fruit peeler is passed around.

I don't really care about the big part of the book dedicated to "what have you done today to deserve your eyes" where Agnes focuses on her eyes and not her other senses or maybe a working tongue, teeth that are healthy, hands, ears, a nose, any of that? Just her eyes. It's a really fucked up mentality but okay.

In so many words. 'My Mom found out I'm gay and this apple peeler is a family heirloom to remind me of her disowning me' is such a wild plot.

Now after that we find out the objective of girl who doesn't matter, Zoey, is to dominate someone else and treat them like a sex puppy. Ew. Then she says like a mother with a child. EW. Stop making it worse.

This devolves into Zoey controlling when she can bathe, eat, what she can do. It's a devolving mess of shock and horror because why not do that? It's a disappointing unraveling of a book.

It could be horror if things were better paced but here it's certainly not. It's a bit of shock content but not the right amount.

1.5 stars. You had me and you dropped me. ( )

Such a dark, disturbing, quick read. ( )

I honestly don’t know what to think of this. It was so visceral and gross, but endearing and strange.

The relationship between the characters was the part I had the most trouble with, being submerged in 2020s where online relationships can mean certain death…the trust they gave very quickly was odd for me, so I had to suspend my disbelief about that. ( )

i dont even know what to say honestly ( )