A ‘tincture of time’ is what is necessary for many, if not most, ailments to resolve one way or another. You give a patient antibiotics, and wait to for them to act. You cut a person open, and wait for them to knit back together. Or you wait, and the patient dies. Some ailments take longer to resolve than others. When Elizabeth Silver’s six week old daughter Abby starts having seizures, despite hundreds of ultrasounds, MRIs, and blood panels, in the end only time gives them an answer as to what will happen- a lot of time. Years.

While the book is based around little Abby’s medical problems, it’s about a lot more than that. It includes the history of how fever has been interpreted and treated since the ancient Greeks, Silver’s husband’s scare of an arachnoid cyst (a thing in his brain that’s harmless but looks terrible on a scan), how her sister-in-law organized 40 women to bake challah and chant prayers to have Abby cured, and much more. It’s also about how Silver is surrounded by doctors (her father, her sister, her husband) and so is right at home with medical stuff- her father, lacking a baby sitter one day when called in to do an emergency appendectomy, took 10 year old Silver to the hospital with him and then, since the nurses couldn’t provide child care, scrubbed her up and took her into the operating room with him- and how her faith in medical science is eroded by its inability to do something to help her daughter. It’s about how three different social workers came in and questioned them mercilessly as to whether one of them had abused, hit, or dropped Abby. It’s about how the fear that a medical problem- especially one that no one ever found out the reason for, and that had no ‘cure’ other than time- never really goes away. She likens, for a while, the mystery and the waiting of Abby’s disease to the disappearance of the Malaysian jet liner that had just vanished over the ocean; she feels like one of the loved ones, waiting on the ground for news, any news.

It’s an interesting story, but I felt the author wandered too much. I think perhaps the author was doing it to show how her mind wandered during the endless waiting, but it doesn’t help the narrative. The bit about fever was, perhaps, useful in the section when Abby runs a fever. The bit about the Wild Boy of Avignon less so, as is stuff about Shakespeare and quantum physics. The Malaysian jetliner is a great metaphor. I know the book originally started as an essay and an editor talked the author into expanding it into a book; I think perhaps it should have stayed a long essay. Four stars out of five. ( )

In this brave, fierce, shattered, devastated tale of uncertainty, Silver takes us on a roller coaster ride! One moment up, the next down. One moment determined. the next full of uncertainty. But always with hope that there will be a tomorrow.

Silver will touch you like no other author ever has. You will find moments of smiling. And others where you will need tissues for the tears.

Silver touches us, in this unforgettable story of medical uncertainty. Her baby girl has a brain bleed. And what comes from that knowledge is enough to drive any mother over the edge.

Silver finds a way to rise above all of the pain and uncertainty. And she shares with you this very personal, very real story. An intimacy is there, like a best friend.

You won't be the same after reading this.

Just try to read it over several days. You can't. you will sit down with it, and you won't stop turning the pages until you are done. Because, like a good friend, you will be there to the very end. Your heart breaking. Your eyes tearing. Your emotions taxed.

I give this five stars,

a big thumbs up,

and I highly recommend it. ( )

Medicine is like faith, "a collection of interpretations...rife with conflict." Doctors interpret data and apply those interpretations to wholly unique circumstances. In this way medicine is an applied science, of a sort. Elizabeth L. Silver, with precision of language and fullness of thought, chronicles the years she spent inhabiting the uncertain spaces between treatment and trust in this open memoir that tears a heart in two, then mends it to the beating hearts of humanity. ( )